I know it is probably just hormonal, but I am depressed. I am tired. I feel like I can't keep up around the house. I feel fat.....and i hurt. Every joint in my body is killing me...every time I get up it hurts. I am frustrated by our lack of income at the moment, and frustrated by my lack of education and ability to help my husband support our home. I am angry about the fact he has a job where the boss treats him like crap...(although don't get me wrong..I am glad he has a job) and I am frustrated with where my relationship with God is at the moment, and finding it hard to find time to read my Bible and pray. I feel as though I have let God down. (as though the Great God of the universe needs me to be the only one to fulfill his purpose....) I feel dry. Sad. Angry. Bitchy. (Am I allowed to say that on a family blog?) and yes...I am feeling sorry for myself...
How is that for an honest post. Maybe too much information?
I know some who would say it is....
Oh well.
It's my blog and I will cry if I want to.
It's not unusual, your female, a wife, a mom and a there is pressure on you to preform. Whether its spoken pressure or not, it's there. Don't be too hard on yourself. And one thing I know for 100% sure, God is not going to let you go or ignore you just cos you're not quite up to scratch. And it's OK to struggle sometimes, it really is. :)
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's hormonal, and maybe it's the winter weather, or maybe it's just a coincidence, but I could have written this blog post. I feel the same way. I have been depressed, angry, frustrated, sad, bitchy, and annoyed... often all at the same time.
ReplyDeleteI just keep saying to myself, this shall pass. It has to get better.
Just know that you aren't alone.